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Ok, I don’t like making New Year’s resolutions because I don’t ever stick to them. Every year I resolve to lose weight and I usually end up being the same weight or slightly heavier. I seem to gain and lose the same 10 lbs. I think part of the reason that I tend to gain weight is because I am at home all of the time. Whenever I worked outside of the home, I didn’t eat nearly as much as I do now. I was 115-120 lbs when I was a teenager and if I gained weight, I could lose it fairly easily. But now, it’s not as easy as just eating less. I guess I will have to actually..ugh..exercise. I cannot stand to exercise. I get bored and it seems like 30 minutes takes 30 hours. But I know that if I really want to lose weight I will have to workout. I have thought of a hundred excuses why I can’t lose weight and I realize it all comes down to me. I am just gonna have to make myself eat fruit instead of chips (salty foods are my weakness, don’t care much for sweets ).
There are times when I hate being a girl. It just seems like we are all expected to look a certain way and to work our butts off to stay attractive. Women were probably a lot happier with themselves before television and movies.
But I’m not sure if I’m gonna really call this a “resolution” or not but its definitely something I want to work on. Will it make me be happier with myself? I don’t know. I will be the first to say that I have low self esteem. I don’t really know why. I know that there are people out there who are bigger than me and they are perfectly happy with themselves. I am extremely competitive so I feel like I always have to be better than someone. I don’t like being runner up. So that’s also something I want to work on. To just be more accepting of myself and love me for me. I’ve been praying lately to see myself the way that God sees me because the way I see myself isn’t that great. And it just makes me have negative attitude and I end up mad at people I shouldn’t be mad at. I am sure there are tons more things I should improve about myself, but I’m just gonna start with those things.
Ok, well I need to comment some blogs and then get ready to eat. My sisters are cooking my moms birthday dinner today…pork chops, mashed potatoes, and green beans…yum!
Tags: family, happy, me, praying, resolutions, self esteem, weight loss
Ear infections are not fun
Especially when you’re 30 :D. I have been having some sinus pressure and drainage, but not really felt that sick. Sunday night, my ears were pretty stopped up, but they weren’t hurting at all. Well around midnight on Monday, I woke up with the most intense pain in my right ear. I got up and laid in my recliner and put the heating pad on my ear, but it didn’t feel any better. I was in tears and eventually around 3:30 (a.m) or 4, I called out for Will. I was hurting so bad and felt so weak that I couldn’t talk very loud. He finally heard me and came to see what was wrong. He helped me to the bathroom and I felt very dizzy. As I was walking out (ok, a little tmi here) I felt nauseous and started vomiting. Usually I can make it to the toilet, but this time I only made it to the sink. I thought I was done, but nope, when I started to leave the bathroom, it hit me again. I only made it to the tub this time. Will, being the wonderful husband he is, cleaned up after me. I don’t know how he did it, but he did. I knew he couldn’t stay home with me becuase since he didn’t have to work Friday, he wouldn’t get his vacation pay if he stayed home. We need the money so I didn’t complain. He got me something to drink and I laid down back on the couch. I sent a text message to my sister that lives about an hour away (she’s a nurse) to see if she was working (she works night shift). She never sent me one back, so I figured she wasn’t. Then I sent her one (hoping it would wake her up) telling her that I needed help because I was really sick. The kids didn’t have to go back to school until today so they were still at home. I knew I’d need help with them and I’d need someone to drive me to the doctor. She called me and asked what was wrong and she could tell I wasn’t feeling well at all. So she drove over here and took care of me and the kids. My ear was hurting so much and nothing would get rid of the constant throbbing. The whole side of my head was hurting. We called around to a couple of doctor’s offices to see when I could get an appointment or if they took walk-ins. Thankfully, the clinic about 15 min from where I live wasn’t that busy. I decided to see the nurse practitioner because it’s easier to get in to see her. Most of the older people that go there want to see the doctor. But the NP can prescribe medication so it was fine with me. The NP was really nice and seemed genuinely concerned. You don’t get that often anymore. She told me I had one of the worst ear infections she’d ever seen. She gave me a shot of antibiotics. I normally hate shots, but I was all to glad to get that one lol. She also gave me a prescription for more antibiotics (that are currently making me nauseous but it’s better than an ear ache!) and some numbing ear drops. I am feeling a lot better today. My ears are still a little stuffy, but they aren’t hurting. I am just feeling really thankful and blessed to have such a wonderful family that could help me out yesterday.
I felt bad for getting sick though because my mom had to have surgery for a hernia (right behind her navel) yesterday. Thankfully, they were able to do it laparascopically so she got to come home. I think she’s a little sore, but doing well. Please keep her in your prayers :) . I am going to go over to see her in a bit. I don’t know how long I’ll stay though, it just depends on how Trey behaves :D.
